Okay, I'm back! The nap was pretty good honestly, but I'm still super tired. Anyway, we marched through the city and the atmosphere was electric. Everyone was cheering and singing - we kept singing Backstreet Boys and ABBA because someone brought their speaker - and I kept waving at the assholes who were glaring at us. We kept seeing people we knew, and ended up with one more person than we started with. The march finished at the park, and it was absolutely packed with people. We had a look around the stalls (it was mostly art and facepainting stuff) and then wound up at the stage where there were dancers and then this magician dude but, like, tons of people started leaving as soon as he was announced. Must be hard being a magician.
At 3:00 we split because Chloe, Lauren, and their cousin had a bbq and Seabass and I needed to go meet her mum. Which took a while, because her mum's phone died, so we just sat in the mall watching the people coming back from pride go past. This one guy was ecstatic that I had flags and told me as much, then ordered me to "have a good one". Bless.
After that came McDonalds, then shopping, then the train home - which was a fiasco and a half. Someone had been hit by a train so the lines were closed, and on the train we got on this old man was complaining and the guy opposite went off. He said, and I directly quote, "SHUT YOUR TRAP YOU FFFFFUCKING MELON!" Which was something.
I've also been going on walks to kill my boredom (I cannot stand to be cooped up at home) and I'm probably gonna ask mum if I can go up city at some point before I keel over and die.
Stranger Things 3 came out today but, like... I don't know if I'm that enthused, y'know? Partially it's being able to see the holes in the writing (the Duffers do love their casual misogyny) and partly it's just growing up, I guess. Weird to think I'm nearly 18. I've noticed myself changing a lot more lately, like the things I like are different and I can't bear the music I used to like two years ago.
This is gonna have to be a really short entry 'cos mum's yelling for me right now but I'm gonna be a lot more active from now on!
It sucks that I'm so out of spoons lately. I can't muster the mental energy to even talk to people and I'm just blegggghhhh. Being disabled isn't fun sometimes! I did do some more refs for artfight which is good - my username is @milkday if you wanna follow me - and I'm trying to get my motivation back to write. If I did post writing, would any of you read it?
There's this old guy on the bus that's always doing something weird. He once drank a pint of milk straight from the bottle. Today he decided he'd knock it out of the park and so - after booting someone from 'his' seat - he pulled out one of those electric shavers and just went to town on his face. I know I'm strange but... jeez. I hope he picked up the clippings.
After class I hung out with my friends at Subway, which is kinda like our hangout spot now. I always get the same thing 'cos I'm reeeeally predictable. It was too hot to do much else after that, so we went to the mall and spent an hour or so playing table football. Shops in the that mall keep closing down (there's another more popular mall reeeeally close, and the less popular one is 90% empty tbh) so they've been putting Community Enrichment stuff in the empty areas. There's a ping-pong parlor, a bike lockup, an honesty library, a table football area, a jigsaw puzzle place, and a music lounge. There's also two pianos by the football place and of course someone started playing Bohemian Rhapsody while we were getting our soccer on, so we started singing along. I had a lot of fun and that's, like, rare for me because my depression is like HEY YOU'RE ENJOYIN' YASELF? FUCKA YOU. I think I'm in a Sunny Patch rn so let's hope it lasts!
I better get to bed because it's the county fair tomorrow and I gotta be outta the house by 9. I'll definitely post photos when I'm home!!
I played more DST in the evening with a friend - I'm practicing maining WX-78 - and we managed to not do too badly. I ended up sleeping on the couch 'cause I was looking at buying a Psyduck build-a-bear, as you do, and this bloody massive spider crawled over my duvet. As much as I like spiders, I don't really want them in my bed. It turns out I'm too tall to sleep on the couch properly, but the good thing was I wasn't too freaked out to - a few summers ago a mouse got into my room so I tried to sleep downstairs, only I was super afraid of a ghost murdering me.
Trying to watch more Megalo Box but it keeps buffering. I've been looking through my listography instead. It's funny how much I've changed (and how little I read these days).
I'm too hot and sleepy to write a long journal entry, but I started watching Megalo Box and so far it's pretty decent! I really like that style of anime - you can probably tell by all the Cowboy Bebop stuff - and I was kinda worried I'd never find something else I liked. I'm also trying to work out how to advertise my art commissions in a way that... you know, actually makes people want to buy them.
In the evening we picked up my friend Emi to go to our college showcase which was, in true Dorian style, not at all as advertised. We watched our short films and mum met all my mates, and then I caught wind of the snack table which was a mistake - they had those cardboard alcohol carton... things and I tried white wine because I am legal to drink and it is RANK. It burned!! Actually burned!! That's probably because it had citrus in it, though. Aaaagh. We finished up early after that and dad was in a jolly old mood so we went to McDonald's, where I ordered a double cheeseburger with one patty and got... a bun, cheese, extra mustard and ketchup. And no burger. Can you even believe that?! Luckily we managed to get another right order but... it would only happen to me. I'm cursed!
To round off a good day, I saw a hedgehog where our rockery used to be! They were just snuffling along, doing whatever it is hedgehogs do. It surprised me so much that I stopped mid-conversation, and promptly forgot the word for hedgehog. We left them some cat food and they played dead 'til we went back inside.
I have to get on with some work for class so I'll probably start that after I eat - after that, I'll most likely nap or watch a movie or something. I take a nap like literally every day, it feels like. It's the good old combo of zoloft and disabilities that mean I'm just about done for the day by 2pm. Christ, I really do sound like an old person. All this talk about weather and naps and shit. I promise you that I am actually a fun teenager!! I swear!!!
I'm supposed to be going in tomorrow to help my group film a missing shot for our music video but nobody turned up today aside from me and this other guy so I absolutely need a break (I'm not a full-time student, I only do 2 1/2 days at college) and I'll probably just sleep in tomorrow. It's too hot to sleep at night, too hot to do anything but lie around complaining. I got a hand-crank fan from Tiger in the shape of a snail and it's sooooo cute!! With all this heat, I might build up some serious muscles from all that cranking.
I had a bad dream last night (think it's the heat) in which I was bitten by a dog on the sole of my foot and then deadnamed repeatedly by the aforementioned teacher. Kind of super sucks, but I doubt either of those things are gonna happen (dragon though he is, Dorian is the trans ally). I hold the belief that dreams are just your subconscious barfing stuff up, and it's kinda like a lucky dip as to what you'll get. I remember as a kid I had this nightmare where I was in my back garden by the greenhouse and a MySims girl (blonde? Dunno if she was a canon character) was swinging super solemnly on this swing and she just... stared at me and I woke up scared shitless. Like, what is scary about that?! Hoping my insomnia doesn't kick in, but if it does I've found the holy grail cure: Kiwami Japan Knife Videos.
Much love (and remember to wear a sunhat)!